Wednesday, October 25, 2006
guess what, today is one of the most MISERABLE day of my life.You know i love NC. You know i chose NCC MYSELF. I was NOT forced into the CCA. It was my first choice, although Mrs Heng says that I have to join a uniformed group. but I have been in the CCA for almost a year now, yet you still think that i was being forced to join it, so you told me not to put my heart and soul in it. whenever i did you'll scold me. I feel terrible. You hoped one day that i would quit, and you regretted for not telling me to go for softball instead. All these times I explained EVERYTIME that I chose that CCA myself, not forced into it. You should be feeling HONOURED that i'm chosen for the shooting competition, yet you scolded in the phone that it's wasting of time. Yes, too much activities will affect my studies, but have you ever wondered, if SEVEN of my specialists could do Triple Science, why can't I? You've always trusted me, but it seems to be not for this time. I know what you are doing is for my own good, but most of the time it creates unhappiness for me. The phone call just now was really very hurting, and that was the time i broke down. I love you more than anything else, but I still have to tell you something which will hurt you, that is I will never quit NC and I'm putting all my heart and soul in it. It's the best thing I could do. sorry.that's why I'm striving for the best results to prove to you that NCC is part of my life now, and it's not affecting me. someday when I make you satisfied, the only wish I have is that you would love NCC as much as I do and be as enthusiastic as me. not only you, but everyone in the family too.readers of my blog please understand that since my blog is my journal, I will write all about what I feel. Therefore, I ask for all readers to understand that most of the time I don't mean what I say, as in when I scold people, (and I have the best parents and family and friends in the world), and those entries were usually posted when i'm really down if it's a negative one. so try not to spread what I typed, as sometimes it gives people the wrong impression. Thanks a bunch =)happy holidays to everyone =D
Bravo-ian 6:52 PM
